This photo was from my 40th birthday- six months after we lost Samantha.
A friend quoted it perfectly, “And then Heather opened her mouth, took all of her friends and swallowed them whole.”
And I would have.
Because I was so empty.
Oh yes dear friends, swallowed you whole. Anaconda ain’t got none…
But that was 8 years ago. Eight years ago when Missy Moo left us. Eight years ago today.
I still pose with an open mouth
Even in the final photo…..in front of hundreds of people accepting a great big check…
Mouth
Wide
Open
Eight years later, would I still swallow you whole? Nah, I think you might be a tad chewy. Dare I say too spicy?
But more importantly, I don’t need to anymore. The hunger to replace a famine in my soul has subsided, the want, desire, the miss, it is no longer so gut wrenching and desperate. Eight years later.
You all have helped me to fill that void and for that I am forever grateful.
So despite the perpetual open mouth, I no longer need to devour you.
Perhaps a nibble.
Samsmom: Life, Joy, Loss and Loving your Mitochondria 
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