Mama gets so worked up about ME…especially when we’re here on the 8th floor. I keep telling her that even though we’re chillin‘ at the CH, life outside goes on and sometimes, it’s good to tell stories about other people; especially my good friends.

Here’s a little snippet about my buddy Kayla. Kayla is very used to being a T.V. star. In fact, you might recognize her from the American Furniture Warehouse Easter Seals commercials.

Because she’s a super star.

Today she is featured on 9 News; walking and talking about the gait lab at Children’s Hospital. I think it’s pretty darn cool that the technology used in movies like Avatar are helping kiddos like Kayla learn to walk. Someday I’ll be scootin‘ along at that gait lab…..once I get off the 8th floor of course.

Speaking of which, there is a rumor going around that I could be going home tomorrow! I’ll be going home on I.V. fluids and a 24 hour feed but home nonetheless.

Don’t tell Mama I told you. She gets a little paranoid and superstitious about posting a discharge that hasn’t happened yet; especially after last week! So, if you don’t hear from her until tomorrow eve it’s because she probably won’t say a thing until we step through the front door of our humble abode.

So send us a little prayer or good thought; do a get-Samantha-home dance and hey, check out my girl Kayla on 9 News, she’s pretty darn cool.

No Code Blue today, just some family time……

I have come to a profound, perhaps shocking conclusion…..

Are you ready?

I have determined that The Children’s Hospital, as nice as it may be, is a slightly stressful environment.

And numerous days in said environment could have an effect on the overall psyche.

I know…..you are shocked.

Today was busy; not stressful but busy. Samantha got her PIC line, (she is doing MUCH better). I didn’t fight with a doctor. We even had a tornado warning sending everyone out into the hallways.

Busy day.

Grandma Judi came in to give me a little respite. I am out of toothpaste and I feel that good dental hygiene is important…..so off to Walmart.

I’m waiting for the elevator on the 8th floor with a mom and her teenage son. As we pile into the elevator I think to myself that the son looks a little pale….really pale….vampire pale. I know vampire pale because I just watched New Moon last night.

We head down to the six floor….vampire pale son looks worse.

Fifth floor….his head droops to the side.

Forth floor….the son has passed out.

It all happened so fast. I didn’t really realize what was going on until the mother looked at the rest of us, trying to support her son and screams HELP ME!

Crap.

I don’t really know what happened after that. Someone stopped the elevator, I remember holding a part of him as we made it onto the forth floor. I do remember saying we should lay him down and I do remember screaming Call a code!

Call a code is hospital talk for What the *&$%#$!!!!!

I wanted to say call 911! But we’re already in the hospital.

Calling a code sounded a bit dramatic to me but really, he had just gone unconscious…out between floor 4 and 5. I no longer take these things lightly.

I kneeled next to him until I realized that when you scream out Call a code! in the hospital, that people take you very, very seriously. We were immediately surrounded by 20 medical people.

Well it’s nice to know everyone responds quickly.

Teenage son was now lucid and awake wondering why this crazy lady is next to him.

Teen Son Mom is crying. Teen Son Mom is stressed. They had just gotten discharged and Teen Son passes out in the elevator.

So I start crying….for Teen Son Mom. Because I know where she’s coming from. And because I too am stressed…..

and really, the last thing I need in my life right now is people passing out in my elevator. Note to reader…..if you are going to pass out, please stay out of my elevator….at least for a week or two.

I just want to go to Walmart.

I have taken the boxing gloves off tonight….

Because they are heavy, cumbersome, I think they might cause carpal tunnel and I no longer feel the need to fight.

It has been a day.

Samantha is on her third I.V. today. Her arms are swollen and puffy from failed lines leaking into her system. She is exhausted; bruised from fighting nurses and needles.

Tonight she is also comfortable, peaceful and sleeping.

Today I have confronted doctors, been on uber-high alert, questioned my judgment, questioned their judgment and held my daughter through her tried and failed I.V placements.

It has been a day.

But really? It hasn’t been a bad day, a hard day but not a bad day. Samantha now has a working I.V. and I feel like we have a new relationship with our medical team. She’s currently snoozing away and comfortable…such a change from last night.

It was a confrontational day but people ‘had our backs’ the whole time. We had a great nursing staff, supportive friends and our fabulous Dr. E pulling us through.

Times when I fight for Samantha and get positive results are never in vain. AND as a friend so wisely pointed out….the pancreatitis will resolve in time but most importantly, we are still seizure free.

I still feel like I will turn a corner and confront the evil seizure monster but I also think that if we were to have big, awful ICU seizure issues because of the wean, perhaps we would have them by now? Knock, knock, knock on wood.

Tonight I read through Samantha’s e-cards; sent by you all. She has so many we are decorating the inside of the door with them. It’s hard to feel defeated or deflated when we have some many wonderful wishes and people rooting for our girl.

That and I’m watching New Moon…giggle, giggle, giggle

Discharge day from the hospital is a party….

Whooo Hooo!!! We are outta here!!!

Emails are sent, family is called and bags are packed. Everything is planned in anticipation of being able to spend precious time at home.

Home….where you can pee without worrying who will walk in. Brush your teeth without being interrupted and spend time in a room bigger than 20′ x 15.

Home is good.

And I’m a big fan of a party.

So today, when we got the okay to go home and to plan the discharge party, it was so very disappointing to put the kibash on it all.

But somewhere in the last 24 hours, our smiley girl became a little peanut who was still in a lot of pain and when I woke her up and got her ready to go home, this became very obvious to me. She still has a lot of belly distress and perhaps we started her feeds too soon.

When Samantha started to show signs of distress, I insisted on a lipase test which indicates pancreatic health. Her lipase is now at 777, meaning we are moving in the wrong direction….up instead of down. Samantha was taken off her feeds and put back on I.V. fluids.

So tonight we postpone the discharge party.

It’s okay. I would rather postpone than host a party we aren’t ready for.

But it’s tough to be the party pooper….tell the doctors to slow things down….insist that she is not ready to go home when really all I want to do is go home, have a meal fixed in my kitchen, put my daughter to bed in her room and cuddle next to my husband.

Ugh, to be the responsible grown-up….so very overrated.

Gastrojejunostomy Tube (GJ tube)….try saying that ten times fast. I’m still working on one time slow. I should probably learn how to say it.

Because Samantha now has one.

Samantha’s belly pain and persistent pancreatitis has told us that right now, her stomach can’t really handle processing food. So, for the time being, Samantha’s formula will go directly into her small intestine where many nutrients are absorbed into the body. Bypassing the stomach will also give her pancreas a rest, which is good and necessary. Our only other option would be I.V. fluids for an extended period of time. The GJ tube gets us home.

Samantha is happier not having anything in her stomach. We’ve seen more smiles and great interaction. She is relaxed and doesn’t mind being repositioned or moved around.

The downside to a GJ tube is that the small intestine can’t handle a lot of volume. Samantha will receive slow drip feeds through most of the day meaning she will be hooked up to a feeding pump about 20 hours a day.

A year or two ago I would be really upset about Samantha being hooked up to a pump but right now a happy, comfortable, interactive girl trumps all.

Did I mention a happy, interactive, almost-keto free, seizure-free-for-three-days little girl trumps all???

Well it does…apparently our lovely sign and all your thoughts and prayers are working.

Samantha has received so many wonderful Children’s Hospital Cards from you all….well we just had to show them off; they now take residence on her door, with the sign. People stop to read ALL her messages…thank you.

We also got a special little present today from a special little family….a ‘frog angel’ pin for Samantha. You know how I feel about angels….and frogs (see December post). She is now wearing the frog angel pin on her pajamas. Hubby says she probably shouldn’t sleep with it on her pj’s….oh alright fine. The frog angel is now hanging over her bed, another symbol of all that is watching over Samantha tonight.

It’s been a hell of a day.

That’s right…..I skipped ‘quite a day’…..

Passed over ‘heck of a day’….

And went straight to hell.

The good news is (knock on wood, knock on wood) it’s day two and no seizures.

The bad news is Samantha still has pancreatitis. Your pancreas secretes an enzyme called lipase. Normal lipase levels range from 10 to 150. Samantha’s lipase is 476; meaning her pancreas is working overtime and is still inflamed.

Pancreatitis is very painful and the only thing you can really do is give your belly a rest. We ‘rested’ her system a couple days ago but only for 12 hours. As soon as we started feeding her again, her levels climbed up.

So she’s back on I.V. fluids and the keto wean is on hold.

Samantha in extreme pain is just awful. She writhes, cries and can’t tell you what’s wrong. Today she has gone from sleeping, to crying, to sleeping, to crying. I am hoping this belly rest will help.

But again, the pancreatitis is a result of the diet so I do feel we’re doing the right thing in taking her off.

Hubby could not make it out of Budapest before the ash shut the airport down. Therefore he and a buddy hired a car and drove from Budapest to Rome….one of the only airports still operating in Europe.

Ah….the 12 hour scenic tour through Hungary, Austria and Italy. He should be driving through the gates of Rome as I type.

If all goes well, he will leave tomorrow morning, onto Boston and home tomorrow night. If Rome closes in the next 12 hours, he will probably take a boat to Northern Africa and fly out from there in the next couple days.

But to quote Scarlett O’hara, “I won’t think about that now. I’ll think about that tomorrow.”